Ten years ago today, I was hospitalized for major depression. I was traveling as a PT, living alone in Georgia and it was the loneliest time of my life. Everyday I dwelled in my own personal hell. A few weeks earlier, I went to a general practitioner and was prescribed an antidepressant and something for anxiety. That held me together for a little bit but the depth of sadness had become so pervasive that I needed to get more intensive help. That’s when I brought myself to the hospital.
As I reflect on the past ten years, I realize how far I’ve come and how much progress I have made. I’ve developed healthy coping mechanisms and a strong support system. I’ve gone from being isolated, alone and depressed to being surrounded by a loving family and friends. I’ve created a beautiful family with my wife who has given me two amazing children. On top of that I have an incredible career, I’m working on a book and own a home. But apart from all that, I have found something very important, self compassion. I am kind to myself. I never knew how to do that. That is an incredibly powerful tool to maintain my mental health. So ten years later, I love my life and look forward to more and more success. I can say with utmost certainty that I have truly grown from that pain and depression. I’m at a great place in my life. Ten years later, I am ok. Thank you for reading.
Survival is ongoing. A process. Looking back, then courageously going forward. Always needing a community, no matter how small. Congratulations on reaching this stage of constructive awareness! As we forgive ourselves, we begin to forgive others. Love follows easily.
Congratulations, Paul!
Continue writing your story; a healing reflection that may inspire others.
Thank you for your wisdom and for being a part of my supportive community. One of my main aims of this blog is to help others who may be struggling with some of the things that I have. Thanks for reading and for your comment!
I’m so happy to be part of your life honey! We all love you so much. Your an inspiration ? continue sharing your story and keep up the positive work…… xoxo
Thanks honey for your love and support. ?
Yes Paul, we remember those sad days very well. We are so thankful you have come a long way from those days and are doing very well. We are so proud of all the roles you have become and what you have accomplished. A great son, husband and father.
All the best is always wished for you.
Love, Mom and Dad
Thanks Mom and Dad. It’s been an interesting journey and I’m glad I’ve come out on the other side. Thank you for believing in and loving me even through those rough times. I’m glad that is all in the past and that the future looks great!
Congratulations on being able to get to a place where you can truly enjoy the beautiful gifts God has given you ?
Thanks Ginny. It’s been an interesting road to say the least but I’m happy that things are good right now. I’m learning how to be grateful for all the amazing gifts in my life. And in doing so I’ll never run out of things to thank God for.