I’m emerging
Fragmented parts
Solidified
And liquified
Simultaneously
Feeling whole
Connected
Coming forth
In the moment
Context changes
Mid sentence
First a feeling of being scolded
Then
There is a sense of
“I and thou”
Rise up to the situation
Then
Just like that
I dissolve into the nothingness
From which I came
Inner collapse
Can’t understand the words
What are they saying to me?
I want to hide
Cowering behind
My nods and smiles
Then
Once again I find
My positive emotional posture
I am solid and liquid once again
Integration
Fragmentation
Back and forth I go
Will I ever make up my mind
Or is this the way
It will always be for me?
It is this inner instability
This consistent turbulence
Day in
And day out
That makes me question
What is happening
To me?