I find myself at the root of my suffering. It is a place of uncertainty. It is uncomfortable and saddening. Memories surface and manifest as current emotional pain. She disregarded. He rendered me powerless. He mocked. He berated. At the root of my suffering I am conquered, defeated, alienated and isolated.
I must look at this root with both eyes wide opened, stare it down without fear and loosen its deadly grip upon my soul. I will be liberated, whole and free as long as I can observe my suffering self through the eyes of self compassion. I stand alone in my suffering and I alone must find the courage to move beyond it.
Stay strong Paulie! Stay Strong!! We ALL have our own monsters. You just have to leave them where they belong…IN THE PAST!!! Believe me, I know…it takes practice. Keep meditating!!!
Thanks Mellon! I’m still learning how to leave those demons in my past. Just when I think I’ve grown beyond them they show up again. It can be a daily battle. Thanks for your encouragement!
Are you naturally a loner?
I do tend to be an introspective person. My thoughts pull me away from the world quite often. I guess I am.