During my adolescent years, I think I got so used to people having fun at my expense that along the way I lost my ability to trust having fun or people in general. Here I am now, decades later, still fighting these battles. Only now, they are in my head. No one is around from that period in my life. They’ve all gone on and are doing their own thing. Here I am now, longing to let it go. I think I’m ready to move forward and trust again. I think I’m ready to live fully. After all, I’ve heard it said that the best revenge is living well. So live well I must.