Sometimes I feel
Lost inside
Unclear
A terrifying experience
Unable to find a center
Of stability
A place inside
I can count on
That I’ll be there
When life shows up
At my bodily doorstep
That I won’t be able
To open the door
Be present
And let the world in
That I’ll somehow
Be present
Yet absent at the same time
I’m there
But not really
This is my biggest fear